Note to God

Dear God – I have a few thoughts for you today, and I just wanted to write them down for you. Maybe others will appreciate them.

First off, thanks for taking care of me. I’m not really that great of a person, but you show your goodness to me. I suck; you’re awesome. I’m mean, you’re kind. I have no mercy, and yours overflows. I could go on and on talking about how lame I am in comparison to you…

I have a question – can I please marry a musician? I’ve been listening to Mat Kearney on my iPod, and I’m kind of in love. I want to have someone to sing with. If he plays guitar, that would be a huge plus.

Oh – thanks for great friends. I’ve gotten to talk to some of them lately via skype (which I am also thankful for). It’s been good for my spirit.

Give me grace. I’m learning that I’m not liking living alone. Let me cry to you for companionship when I am lonely and battling the blues cause there isn’t someone there to drive me crazy. I kind of like being driven crazy.

Please give me your eyes. I’m not doing too great all the time with seeing people like you do. I’m a selfish person. I want to get my rest. My comforts. My needs and desires. I’m not great at setting them aside.

Let me decrease; so that you can increase in my life.

Thanks for the Bible. It’s been really good to be reading your words. It really blows my mind that I have access to your words.

You know what else blows my mind? Airplanes. I still am amazed every time one rises into the sky. Thanks for giving people the idea and ingenuity to be able to make those.

Thanks for language. I really love getting to speak, read, and write Thai. It’s super awesome.

Thanks for people who call me out. I need it.

Thanks for computers. I know mine is being really dumb right now, and restarting at least three times a day, but I am thankful for it. Thanks for the service it’s given. Thanks for a friend who is going to bring me a new one from the states.

Thanks for parents that I can talk to. I got to talk to my mom about all kinds of stuff the other day. I know we’re all not perfect people, but thanks God, for giving us a good relationship where I can talk to her about basically everything. It was good for my spirit.

Thanks for people who read this kind of stuff. I forget about how awesome my buddies around the world are. Thanks for building up a support group for me to have folks I can call when times are rough.

I could go on. But God, you’re good. And I’m gonna leave it at that.

-me

Your turn: you got anything you want to thank God for? Ask Him about? Share in the comments, you never know when your words will touch someone else!

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No alone time

Last night, I wanted some alone time. It was just one of those days where nothing went my way, I was frustrated with myself, grumpy, and just in need of a “darn good cry.”

I’ve just come back from a trip, and typically, one of my post-trip traditions is a head, back and shoulder massage. I carry tension in my shoulders, and the idea of a lovely Thai woman pounding out my stress was heavenly.

I had a skype appointment with a friend, but I figured she probably didn’t want to talk at 6am her time – the time when I got off work.

So I decided to go to a tiny shop on my street and get a massage. I get there, and they say, sure, we can get that, no problem. They get me set up in my spot, and start talking.

Now can I say, that being able to speak Thai means that we don’t just say hi. We end up talking, and people like to talk to me in Thai, cause I know a decent bit of language – I can get myself through some more detailed conversations without drowning, and people kind of like to test how much exactly I can talk about.

Here’s a sample of the conversation:

Them: How long have you lived in Thailand?

Me: 2.5 years.

Them: You speak Thai so clearly!

Me: Thank you.

Them: What do you do?

Me: I teach English.

Them: Wow, you speak Thai so good!

I mean, let’s be honest, conversations like this, filled with words of affirmation are just great for my psyche.

Anyhow, there were two gals there. One told me that she wants to study English with me. I told her we’d talk after the massage, or else it would just be weird. Ha.

We finish my hour of wonderful pain (it was all the good kind), and I sip tea while the owner of the shop talks to me.

It’s a tiny place – one room with three mats on the floor. She told me that she doesn’t really speak English well, but that she is fluent in Japanese and Thai, but that she has no friends who speak English well. She wants to get to talk and practice her English.

“Where would we study?” she asked. I told her we could do it at her shop, which has a lovely spot in front of it. I told her my place, a coffee shop, wherever would be fine with me.

She was delighted. We exchanged numbers, and she told me about at least three messaging apps that I MUST download for my phone so we could talk all the time (for free).

Since I left her shop, she’s already texted me with one of the apps, and we’ve talked a bit. It’s been really good – I’ve been wanting to connect with some “older” people around my area – not just the village kids. I adore those kids, but man, to be able to connect with adults too…

I just fear that if I focus on just kids, I set them up for failure. I want to help train adults…

And while we’re starting with just talking in English for the time being, I’m praying that this relationship buds into so much more.

I guess alone time is overrated. I really could have feigned stupidity with my Thai. I could have said that I was not interested in teaching her. I could have totally gone to another massage shop. But God took me there – to that time; to that place.

I wanted alone time – but that is not what God wanted for me.

Your turn: anything you felt like you wanted, that wasn’t what God had for you? Share in the comments section.

 

Trippin’

So for the past two weeks, I was on a trip where I would not have much internet access at all. On the way back, I wrote a few blog posts. Unfortunately, they are on my clean travel computer, so here’s a short post with a few highlights of this past trip.

1. Hiking like crazy, carrying all my goods on my back for a few days. That really gives perspective on what you actually need.

2. Fellowship with some rocking people I am proud to call my friends. I freaking love them and hope we remain friends forever.

3. Taking photos of what God has been/still is doing.

4. Technology fast. Oh my word, it was so good to lose the ball and chain of technology. Granted, I still did use my iPod, but that’s proof of God’s graciousness (I fall asleep listening to music and or podcasts every night).

5. Team bonding. I got to go with a teammate, and we really got to spend a lot of time together, bonding and getting closer. It really was good to spend time working together out of the office and on the field.

6. New experiences – harvesting cloves with locals (AWESOME fun – they were cracking up at me), cliff jumping (I had to do it a few times for my life to have enough time to flash before my eyes), and going and staying in random peoples’ houses each night. Really, it was epic.

7. This is gonna sound crazy – but when you go overseas, bathroom strategies suddenly are super important. You know when you have to go throw water, and everyone gets it. You talk about how to make sure you hit the tiny hole in the board that serves as a toilet. You wave at the people in the next house over while you squat. You learn how to distinguish areas that have been designated the bathroom (something we’re not totally good at yet, cause we found that we hung out in a few toilets inadvertently. In our defense, they looked nothing like toilets).

8. Experiencing the goodness of God. There’s nothing like it.

I’m gonna end it at 8. But there are more posts coming – I may spread them out so I don’t post a million times at once.

I’m not the only one who should make lists: you guys got anything going on that you could put in a bullet point list? Do it in the comments….I like updates too!